Off

Shut me off please
I beg of you to
Turn off the switch that
Keeps me up at night.
I ache, restless
I'm tortured and cornered.
Stuck in a rut, stuck in time.
Stuck writing this useless rhyme.
That no one will hear
Unless I scream but I fear
Myself.
I'm helpless and tired
And sick and I'm wired
These thoughts pound
And pound at my door
I implode and hold
All the frustrations
And its wrong.
I cannot stand
And I cannot lie. I try
To take out and show you
What's inside.
My heart feels heavy weighing down on me.
My eyes tear and my vision is blurry.
I close my eyelids but
My mind shifts into somethin I can't capture.
3:33 am it's been hours since
My last attempt to sleep.
I turn and toss I count sheep
Across and over the fence
I pretend things will be okay
When I sleep my nightmares begin.
It dragged me on the floor
Showing me things I've seen before
Then to a dark grizzly corridor
Statues with faces of torment
And rage and eyes that can peer
Into my soul and to excavate and retract
My inside intact within.
I begin to cry but my eyes won't let me
I'm dry.
It dragged me again and still I contain
These fears and eagerness to break from
A spell.
I yell I shout
I dabble with words and ideas
Just anythin that can help me out.